Literally, I tried to think of a title for this post that would capture the moment, and I just couldn't do it. I'm always talking with my first graders about crafting their titles. You know, so not every title is: "The time I went to Sea World with my Family" or "I love my dog because he's so cute". Those are the kinds of titles I see from my kids if I don't teach them anything different. So, my point is, I was trying to think of a title other than: "Laney and I took a nap together" or "I love holding my little girl in my arms while she sleeps". There are seriously no words that can capture how wonderful it was to have Laney asleep on my chest the other day. Here's how the story goes...
Brooks was already down for his nap and Laney and I were just hanging out on the floor watching some Rachel Ray. I laid her down on my chest with her paci in her mouth and it wasn't 2 seconds later that she was asleep. I thought about it for a minute and decided I should probably put her in her crib so she could have a good nap and I could get things done around the house. Then I thought about Brooks and how quickly he has grown up. He doesn't cuddle me any more or fall asleep on my chest. So instead of putting Laney down in her crib, I slowly got up and carefully walked back to my bedroom. I didn't want to wake her so I was moving at about a snail's pace trying to lay in bed with her limp body on my chest. I laid down without waking her up. Now, that's just half the battle - the other half of the battle was trying to get comfy so that maybe I could nap, too. I adjusted the pillow a bit and covered us up with the blanket. We were so cozy in bed together. I just laid there for a while listening to her breathing. I thought about how blessed I am. Let's think back: It was 15 hours after birth before I even got to see my daughter, and still another 12 hours before I got to hold her. And even then I had to schedule a time that worked for the nurses to sit and hold her...and I could only hold her for an hour. And it was never peaceful. There were always nurses chatting, alarms going off on all the NICU babies (including our little peanut), not to mention all the wires in our way. These are the memories that were going through my head while I held Laney the other day.
I am so blessed and holy cow - I love this girl so much!
I did manage to close my eyes a bit even though my arm was completely numb. We ended up laying together for about 2 hours. I would sleep a little and wake up to her little noises, and then sleep some more.
It was the most perfect 2 hours of my day.
